Smoke and Mirrors: Pocket Version

Heres a thought.

I have been trying to quit smoking cigarettes for a while because my lungs are dying.

I have been trying my hardest to wait as long as possible in a day.

Obviously the longer i wait the better i feel but not for the obvious reasons.

I have noticed that in the mornings when i don't smoke for hours i think better.

My mind works differently.

I feel sound minded and able.

Then i give in to my heaving lungs and smoke that first cigarette.

Suddenly my sanity slip.

I feel like a balloon floating aimlessly.

I feel helpless.



Do you ever notice that you never feel the rush of a cigarette after the first one? I'm sure you have.

Well you might think it's because your body has just become used to it.

Fact is your body isn't that cool. The cigarette apparently is.

Just like any other high it didn't wear off as soon as you thought the more cigarettes in your day the higher you get...

It's not your body that becomes used to it...

It's your mind that accepts it's change.

Life is erratic and the human mind knows this that is why subconsciously it try to help us and shelter us in delusion.

It makes us believe these violent changes are normal so we can maintain our sanity and continue to survive.

Which is in fact one of the minds ultimate purposes.

Survival and satisfaction.

The two contradictory elements that control the mind.

It's no wonder things are the way they are.